My observable symptoms: responding to internal stimuli, inappropriate laughter, mood swings are the tip of the iceberg. You can’t see the hallucinations, delusions, loneliness and the pain.
When I had my first psychotic break, no one around me noticed. I am married and was working. People asked me if I was sad. I was isolating, and they can’t know what is going on inside your mind. (Although, at times i have believed people could know my thoughts).
Now, it is hard to tell if I am isolating or just following stay home orders.
I have been stable for years. Sometimes, I worry i will have another break, but hopefully we (my husband and I) will be able to recognize it and act quickly.